a cup of pink tea please!

I just want a cup of pink tea...
yeah i know it doesn't exist but a pink tea would calm my nerves?
Donno' but i'm in a big bad mood '
cause in this shitty world if you're good,you're a fool.
If you're kind everybody's using you and that's not all...
sometimes you speak directly the subject and some people get it all wrong kinda like you want to say things with thousand of meanings.
I'm not the two-face guy i'm the straight-to-the-face guy.
I had a big "fight" on the phone with somebody important for some meaningless people so i'm disturbed about the fact.
I'm having some hard times and nothing distracts my attention,
nothin's workin' lately.
I should go back in my indifferent world,i'ved showed up a smile for some people and they're dreamin' too much now...ok no more mister nice guy.
I don't want to ruin my life this way maybe in other way but wtf!
This end of the day made me "puke"...seriously i'm very numb right now.
You make hundreds of gestures for someone and that person it's like
"tralala..i'm still bossy" with some "Watcha' did boy?"
attitude and forgot that in the past made major mistakes.
Whatever...i'ved started to say too many things at a time so i'm sure
that you don't understand nothin' that it's in here.
This post should had been skipped,but maybe some people will read it and think twice for now on...